jealousy...

I have always kind of prided myself on the fact that I am not really a jealous person. It's just never been my style. I am usually pretty secure in my relationships, either with my husband or my friends and jealousy isn't usually a feeling I get too often....until about 10 minutes ago. First let me tell you how much I didn't like it. I hate this feeling. I am so glad it doesn't happen often. Anyway, let me cut to the chase here.
For many years I have been wanting to move from where we live. We live in the desert in So. Cal and in the summer it is unbearably hot for me. I hate it. I don't have a lot of really close friends here. I have made lots of friends over the years but there still is nothing like the lifelong friendships that I formed with people I have known from "home". Oh and the couple of really great friends I have met here have both moved to Orange County. And that of course, is where I want to be. I didn't grow up in Orange County, but not far from it at all. I grew up in a smallish town in Los Angeles county called Downey. Downey was great because it was 15 minutes from the beach, LA, Disneyland...really anywhere that we wanted to be. I don't want to move back to Downey because for the most part most of my friends from there are now in... Orange County. (are you seeing the trend here). Recently my husband has kind of been searching for a new job. Business here for what he does is really, really slow. He needs a change. Now what I am going to say next is going to sound biased and I get that. My husband is amazingly talented, hard working and beyond loyal. (see I told you it would sound biased). But really it's all true. He is a cabinet designer. But really he is so much more. He is able to do it all, from conception,design to installation and project management. He has been doing it all for 16 years and has been very successful but the desert is a place where the wealthy people have their 2nd and 3rd homes and they are not putting money into them anymore and so he has kind of lost his niche. So (wow this story is taking way longer than I thought) he has been sending his resume out to cabinet companies and builders all over the place the last few days, and when I say all over the place, New York, North Carolina, Ohio, Florida you name it. Which really, really scares me because really? I just want to move to Orange County. I am a California girl who has lived a pretty sheltered life. I am willing to go wherever he wants to go but I am hoping, praying and wishing that he finds something in OC.
OK so finally, I am going to get the jealousy part. My sweet, young twenty something neighbor just texted me tonight because she wanted to let me know that she and her husband (they were both born and raised here) were moving and their house was going to be empty soon. So of course then I said "aww, we are so sad you are going, where are you moving to? Well you already know the answer right? ORANGE COUNTY!!
Now let me just say that a few months ago this same girl said she had no desire to leave the desert, she has a baby and is pregnant again and didn't want to leave her mom, but now guess what? Her family? IS GOING WITH THEM! Shut the frickin door, not only are they moving but they get to take her fam with them!!!
HELP! I hate this feeling!
Please say a little prayer for my husband tonight and for me too. Ask that we can get to move there too...it's where we need to be. My family is pretty much gone now and my brother Danny lives in Corona and we would be closer to him and my new brother Randy lives in Oregon and we are still getting to know each other and if I  move all the way to New York I feel like I will never get the chance to get to know him or his family. Oh and since we are praying and wishin maybe we can do something about this whole jealousy thing. Just sayin.
xoxo
Nina